Fairytale

Written by Julie Neumark

Fairytale was born out of a place of such raw yearning that it wrote itself in about an hour. I had fallen for a teacher archetype in my life. There were ethical restrictions surrounding our situation that prevented any sort of real-life romantic relationship from occurring between the two of us.  My imagination, however, knew no such boundaries. I had blinders on to all else…I only wanted to live in the “Once upon a time…â€� of the fairytale inside my mind.

I wanna be anybody but me

 

'Cause if i wasn't me I could be with you

 

I'm running into all your boundaries

 

Crashin into your concrete point of view

 

 

It's all kind of a fairytale inside my mind

 

A queer kind of eternity inside my mind

 

 

I wanna bathe in all your mystery

 

I'm already lying naked in the room

 

Your propaganda's washing over me

 

Rinsing away my good girl attitude

 

 

It's all kind of a fairytale inside my mind

 

A queer kind of eternity inside my mind

 

It's all kind of a fairytale inside my mind

 

A queer kind of eternity inside my mind

 

 

I spend hours with you in my head

 

I'm reachin' for you from my bed

 

I wanna cross that line

 

Start living once upon a time

 

 

Solo

 

 

It's all kind of a fairytale inside my mind

 

A queer kind of eternity inside my mind

 

It's all kind of a fairytale inside my mind

 

A queer kind of eternity inside my mind

 

Inside my mind

 

Inside my mind

 

Inside my mind

 

Dirty Laundry

Written by Julie Neumark

Inspiration: I was inspired a relationship I was in that totally crapped out. It started off so wonderful and full of trust and ended really ugly. There is something sacred about the good times in a relationship – the sharing of secrets, etc. that should never be expoited. When it is – it can be pretty messy. That’s what this one is about. Written 4/2005.

You been airin' out my dirty laundry
You been airin' out my dirty laundry
Hung it up to dry before I washed it
Drippin' on the line so everyone can see
Dry-clean only yesterday
Stinkin' up my sweet bouquet
You been airin' out my dirty laundry
You been airin' out my dirty laundry

I know you've got lots of dirty laundry
And I know where you keep your dirty laundry
Hidin' in the Hamper will not stop me
Diggin' through your pila stank 'til I find my way
Promises of diamond rings
Stick to me like static cling
Better bet I'll air your dirty laundry

I could never air you're dirty laundry
I could never air you're dirty laundry
No matter how much joy it woulda brought me,no
I never coulda aired your dirty laundry
The smell of dirty laundry fades
But your stinkin' soul pervades
So go ahead and air my dirty laundry, yeah
Go ahead and air my dirty laundry
Go ahead and air my stinkin' filthy soiled
grimy grubby squalid
vile rotten nasty
raunchy smutty -
Oh it's dirty
Oh it's dirty
Oh it's dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty
Laundry

Sexy

Written by Julie Neumark

Inspiration: I was listening to Nikka Costa’s “Can’tneverdidnothin� and there was this really sexy song “Happy in the mornin’� I had just met someone and had all the butterflies of that….I think the combination of those 2 things is what inspired “Sexy�. Well that, and I had just bought a pack of jelly-bellies that had cotton candy jelly beans…..Written 5/2005

Come a little closer
I wanna feel some skin
Baby I've been hungry
I wanna taste your lips

Oh you're sweet like a cotton candy jelly bean battered up and then deep fried
Sweeter than the anticipation that I'm feelin' when I'm just about to lose my mind

Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
So
Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
Sexy

The temperature is risin'
I'm gettin' weak in the knees
When you make me feel dirty
I don't wanna get clean

Oh you're sweet like a cotton candy jelly bean battered up and then deep fried
Sweeter than the anticipation that I'm feelin' when I'm just about to lose my mind

Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
So
Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
Sexy

Oh you're sweet like a cotton candy jelly bean battered up and then deep fried
Sweeter than the anticipation that I'm feelin' when I'm just about to lose my mind

Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
So
Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
You're so
Sexy baby I don't know what I'm gonna do
So Sexy
You're so sexy that I just can't keep my hands off of you
So Sexy

Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
So
Ah ooooooo
You're so
Ah ooooooo
Sexy

Take Me

Written by Julie Neumark and Cary Beare

Inspiration: This was my first co-write with songwriter Cary Beare. We were up in his house in Laurel Canyon, early on a Saturday morning when we came up with this tune. It’s really about not wanting to be left behind. 3/2005

Take all the time
that you need and I'll be here
You'll never find
what you want standing still

This road we're on
keeps dead-ending
You twist and turn
and I keep winding back to you

Don't go away
Don't leave me here (if you)
Must go away
Well then take me
Won't you take me

The door is open
you can run away
Or we can close it
if you decide to stay

Don't go away
Don't leave me here (if you)
Must go away
Well then take me
Won't you take me

Don't go away
Don't leave me here (if you)
Must go away
Well then take me
Won't you take me

Writer’s Remorse

Written by Julie Neumark

Inspiration: I wrote this song in about an hour one night after a gig. It’s actually an apology of sorts in regards to another song I had written about a friend called, “Losing All Your Friends.� When I wrote “Losing All Your Friends� I was angry at a friend of mine and really only wrote it as a means to vent my feelings; I never intended on performing it. But, I did that night and my friend was there and figured out it was about her. I felt terrible and went home and wrote “Writer’s Remorse�. I guess it’s really more of a follow-up/explanation rather than an apology. At any rate, we’re still friends and I think that she likes the fact that she has not one, but 2 songs about her! Written 12/2004.

I will not apologize
For what I feel
I’m sorry if what I write
Is too real
You’re feelin’ criticized
By what I said
The truth will jeopardize
Us in the end
But I want you know

I never wanted it to hurt you
I never wanted it to make you feel unloved
I never wanted it to hurt you
I only wanted what I wanted to be enough

When you said goodbye I could see
I knew that you’d figure it out
Eventually
So I have said what I wanted
Now it’s your turn
The closer you get to the fire
The more you get burned
But I want you to know

I never wanted it to hurt you
I never wanted it to make you feel unloved
I never wanted it to hurt you
I only wanted what I wanted to be enough

I wish you happiness In all you do
It’s just that selfishly I’m missin’ you
I wish you would communicate more openly
‘Cause I can’t be a friend to what I can’t see

I never wanted it to hurt you
I never wanted it to make you feel unloved
I never wanted it to hurt you
I only wanted what I wanted to be enough

I never wanted it to hurt you
I never wanted it to make you feel unloved
I never wanted it to hurt you
I only wanted what I wanted to be enough

Your Friend

Written by Julie Neumark

Inspiration: I fell hard for a friend…yes, a big ol’ crush. This was my way of spilling the beans, ha – live, at a show. Written 9/2004

I’ve sat here rationalizing everything
Wrapping my mind around my heart
Involuntarily
You are the air I breathe
But more than friends, is less than smart

I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna be safe anymore
I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna do what’s right
I don’t wanna be your friend I
don’t wanna be safe anymore
I don’t wanna be your friend
I wanna hold you – tonight

Your "shouldn’ts" don’t mean anything to me
Because you say them with a smile
I laugh and walk away
I don’t know what to say
Let’s just makeout –
And have some fun

I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna be safe anymore
I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna do what’s right
I don’t wanna be your friend I
don’t wanna be safe anymore
I don’t wanna be your friend
I wanna hold you –

Tonight’s the night
And we can take it slow
It’s gonna be alright
No one has to know
It’ll be our little secret
What’s the danger in taking friendship deeper?

I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna be safe anymore
I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna do what’s right
I don’t wanna be your friend I
don’t wanna be safe anymore
I don’t wanna be your friend
I wanna hold you – tonight
Tonight